My mental health sucks right now. Lockdown is draining me and I feel like I’m stuck. Right now, my main way of making myself feel less glum is listening to some motivating, spirt lifting, happy, positive songs.
Music has a weird way of making you completely change your mood and it can even give you courage that you didn’t know that you had. That is why I think that music is more important than ever right now.
I’m not sure if your mental health sucks too but I do know that a positive and uplifting playlist is great all of the time. It’s just especially great when your mental health isn’t at it’s best.
Today is 1st of April which signifies the first day of Stress Awareness Month. I feel like stress is something that is often ignored as we all just assume that it’s ‘normal’ to be stressed. However, stress is not something that should be ignored because it can lead to people feeling depressed and anxious. That’s why it’s so important to start talking about stress right now.
During our lives, we encounter a lot of times that we face moments of stress. Maybe we don’t even recognise the stress or maybe the stress simply overwhelms us. No matter what kind of stress you are feeling, it is valid and needs to be spoken about.
You probably already know that yesterday at 8:30pm, Boris Johnson announced that the UK was going into lockdown. He stated that there’s now only a few reasons that you are allowed to leave the house and that the police will have more power now.
If you didn’t quite catch what he was saying, here’s the only times you’re allowed to leave the house:
Shopping for basic necessities
One form of exercise a day
Medical need, to provide care or to help a vulnerable person
Travelling to and from work (if completely necessary)
This will be a 3 week lockdown and then the situation will be reassessed.
I know that that is exactly what this country needs but I can also understand that this is going to be hard for people’s mental health, including mine.
Crisis survival strategies and skills are all about doing whatever works to help you get through any moment of crisis. They are the skills that you need to help you get through the situation without worsening it.
One way that you can manage a crisis is by calming each of your five senses.
After writing my post about my life lessons, I realised that even though I have learnt a few life lessons throughout my life, there’s still more that I can improve on to make myself the best version of me that I can be.
I think it’s time that I start off a journey of becoming the best version of myself. I’m going to start by making lists of traits, habits and general things that I aspire to be. I thought what better place to share these lists than right here on my blog. By putting my thoughts into writing, it will be like taking them out of my very chaotic mind and it might even help to make me feel even more accountable. Hopefully sharing my goals and aspirations with you all will encourage me to do what I need to do to get to the places that I want to be.
I want to write more blog posts in advance so that when bloggers block hits, I have something to share with you all.
I want to make sure I keep my home, desk area and living spaces clean.
I want to stop procrastinating and get things done so I have time to relax when I need to in the evenings.
I want to stick to one journal system and actually use the journal to organise my days.
I want to start managing my monthly budgets better and start saving money.
I want to lose five stone (70lbs) before my 24th birthday (November 2020).
I want to drink more water instead of lemonade and other fizzy drinks.
I want to stop eating cake as much.
I want to try to follow exercises from YouTube.
I want to make sure that I keep on top of my personal hygiene.
I want to try looking at situations more positively instead of worrying too much.
I want to show more gratitude to the people who are in my life.
I want to cut out the toxic people in my life and make friends to replace them.
I want to practise forgiveness for others to protect my own sanity.
I want to incorporate daily meditation into my life.
I want to set boundaries that will protect my own wellbeing.
I want to start practising my drawing skills and painting more.
I want to actually learn to play my guitar instead of looking at it just sat in the corner.
I want to travel more and experience as many cultures as I can.
I want to rekindle my love for reading.
I want to start taking more photographs to capture precious life moments.
I’m hoping that now I have shared these goals with you, I’ll be able to keep up with this. It’s definitely going to be a hard journey and nothing will be accomplished overnight but it will be an interesting journey. I will probably focus on a small task per week or even longer so that I can create new habits and keep my thoughts organised.
If you lovely readers are also on a journey of self improvement, what’s on your list of things to improve on?
I know that growing up is inevitable. I know that we are bound to change over time. I know that our apperances will change as we age. I know all that!
Do you think it’s possible to age gracefully? I see all these celebrities growing older but hardly changing. Maybe it’s some kind of witchcraft or something, I simply just don’t know. However, when it comes to me, I’m ageing disgracefully.
I look at these photos and feel incredibly sad. I feel like I let myself go and I feel like I didn’t look after myself the way that I wish I did.
I put on weight, cut my hair too short, stopped wearing makeup, stopped dressing in clothing that made me happy and I even became more depressed.
I was sharing these photos on Twitter and people kept responding with lovely things like ‘beautiful in all’ and all that kind of stuff. Don’t get my wrong, I’m super grateful for all the nice comments and they do make me feel a little better but at the end of the day, if I’m not happy with myself then I need to do something about it.
That is why, things are going to be changing around here and my life.
I’m going to get back on the weight loss game so you can actually see my jaw line again. I’m going to get back into fashion and wear clothing that makes me feel great. I’m going to start wearing make up again and practiasing different styles until I find one that I’m happy with. I’m going to grow my hair to a longer length so I can style it different ways. And most importantly, I am going to work on getting better mentally.
I’m going to start documenting my lifestyle changes on my blog, YouTube channel, Fitness Insta and Twitter. If you want to keep up to date with my life changes then I definitely recommending checking out my other socials.