Monday Motivation Quotes To Get You Through The Week

I think we are all programmed to think that Mondays have to suck. But they don’t have to. For me, the way to not dread a Monday is to find something to look forward to for the week. If you don’t have something you’re excited for, you could set yourself a goal for the week which means you’ll have something to work towards.

Whether you love Mondays or not, getting out of bed on a Monday morning can be a tricky one. So, here are some Monday motivational quotes for you to help you feel more productive and motivated for the week.

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Things On My July To Do List

Starting a new month has always been a pretty exciting time for me. I love the idea that a new start is here and I get to reevaluate my life and my goals. Am I making progress on my goals? Are the goals I’ve set still relevant? If the answer is no, then I get to rethink the goals and see how I can keep improving myself and my life.

For those of you who read my last blog post, you’ll know that my life has been changing a lot. Since those changes, I’ve been thinking about my goals even more. So I figured that this would be a perfect time to write a post here all about my July goals.

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Self Care Ideas For A Bad Mental Health Day

Self care is important all the time can it can be difficult to practise self care when you’re going through a tough time.

On bad mental health days, it can feel like nothing is possible and we completely forget to take care of ourselves. We might even end up wrapping ourselves in a blanket and doing nothing all day.

However, when you feel like that, it’s time to pause, take a deep breath and take care of yourself. This is the perfect time to practise self care.

I have created this super simple list of ideas so that when you’re having a bad mental health day, you have some ideas of little self care activities you can try.

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Becoming The Best Version Of Myself

After writing my post about my life lessons, I realised that even though I have learnt a few life lessons throughout my life, there’s still more that I can improve on to make myself the best version of me that I can be.

I think it’s time that I start off a journey of becoming the best version of myself. I’m going to start by making lists of traits, habits and general things that I aspire to be. I thought what better place to share these lists than right here on my blog. By putting my thoughts into writing, it will be like taking them out of my very chaotic mind and it might even help to make me feel even more accountable. Hopefully sharing my goals and aspirations with you all will encourage me to do what I need to do to get to the places that I want to be.

Productivity:

  • I want to write more blog posts in advance so that when bloggers block hits, I have something to share with you all.
  • I want to make sure I keep my home, desk area and living spaces clean.
  • I want to stop procrastinating and get things done so I have time to relax when I need to in the evenings.
  • I want to stick to one journal system and actually use the journal to organise my days.
  • I want to start managing my monthly budgets better and start saving money.

Physical Health:

  • I want to lose five stone (70lbs) before my 24th birthday (November 2020).
  • I want to drink more water instead of lemonade and other fizzy drinks.
  • I want to stop eating cake as much.
  • I want to try to follow exercises from YouTube.
  • I want to make sure that I keep on top of my personal hygiene.

Mental health:

  • I want to try looking at situations more positively instead of worrying too much.
  • I want to show more gratitude to the people who are in my life.
  • I want to cut out the toxic people in my life and make friends to replace them.
  • I want to practise forgiveness for others to protect my own sanity.
  • I want to incorporate daily meditation into my life.
  • I want to set boundaries that will protect my own wellbeing.

Hobbies:

  • I want to start practising my drawing skills and painting more.
  • I want to actually learn to play my guitar instead of looking at it just sat in the corner.
  • I want to travel more and experience as many cultures as I can.
  • I want to rekindle my love for reading.
  • I want to start taking more photographs to capture precious life moments.

I’m hoping that now I have shared these goals with you, I’ll be able to keep up with this. It’s definitely going to be a hard journey and nothing will be accomplished overnight but it will be an interesting journey. I will probably focus on a small task per week or even longer so that I can create new habits and keep my thoughts organised.

If you lovely readers are also on a journey of self improvement, what’s on your list of things to improve on?

Not Feeling Good Enough

I woke up this morning and instantly wish I hadn’t. It wasn’t because I wished I had died or something, it was simply just because I couldn’t be bothered existing. I didn’t feel like putting on a front to talk to people and I couldn’t be bothered to pretend to feel good about myself.

Recently, I watched a film called I Am Pretty on Netflix. It wasn’t the best film in the world but it sort of had me thinking a bit. The main character never felt good enough and then suddenly, her mindset changed and she felt like she was super amazing. It completely changed her way of life just because her mindset had changed. In the end, she discovers that she is perfect the way she was, blah blah blah.

I really do wish that it was just as easy as a mindset change to make yourself feel good enough but I don’t think that it is. It takes a lot more to realise your own self worth.

I’m not the type of girl who has a toned body, glossy hair or perfect skin. In fact, I’m actually the opposite. I’m overweight, my hair is definitely in need of some work and my skin in covered in scars and acne. Even though I’m not classed as perfect, I never used to let that impact my confidence.

As a child, we are willing to chat to people without them worrying that they are judging us. However, over the years, our confidence sort of dies and we end up feeling like we just aren’t good enough. What made us change though? Maybe it was all in our heads or maybe it’s to do with factors that we just can’t control. I don’t even know.

If you’re anything like me, you’ll push people away when you don’t good good enough. You think you’re doing what’s best for them but are we really? I used to think that people were my friend out of pity. I figured that they didn’t actually like me, they just felt sorry for me and wanted to seem kind.

It’s kind of weird to look back on that now. I’m now in a situation where I don’t have any real life friends because I’m getting too good at pushing people away. The only person who I do have is my partner and half the time, I think he is with me for pity too. It’s an awful feeling!

When I woke up this morning, I pretended to still be asleep until my partner left so that I didn’t have to talk to him. He didn’t do anything wrong at all, I just didn’t feel good enough to be with him. I felt like he deserved better. I’ve pushed him away so many times in the past and I’ve made his life incredibly hard. But, he is still with me.

That is what I need to keep in my mind. I need to remember that the people who care, are still here. We have been together for over four years and he hasn’t gone anywhere. Sometimes my mind tricks me into thinking that is is pity or maybe that he has some other hidden reason to be with me. However, I need to remember one thing. No one sticks around for four years just from pity.

It’s so hard to get that into my mind but I’m going to keep trying. Maybe I am good enough for my partner. Maybe I am good enough for other people too. I think I just need to start giving people a chance.

What is ‘enough’ anyway? Maybe everyone feels like this and we are all just faking confidence to try to get by? I don’t know what happens in other’s people’s minds and I hardly even know what’s happening in mine.

Getting Back To My Old Self

I know that growing up is inevitable. I know that we are bound to change over time. I know that our apperances will change as we age. I know all that!

Do you think it’s possible to age gracefully? I see all these celebrities growing older but hardly changing. Maybe it’s some kind of witchcraft or something, I simply just don’t know. However, when it comes to me, I’m ageing disgracefully.

I look at these photos and feel incredibly sad. I feel like I let myself go and I feel like I didn’t look after myself the way that I wish I did.

I put on weight, cut my hair too short, stopped wearing makeup, stopped dressing in clothing that made me happy and I even became more depressed.

I was sharing these photos on Twitter and people kept responding with lovely things like ‘beautiful in all’ and all that kind of stuff. Don’t get my wrong, I’m super grateful for all the nice comments and they do make me feel a little better but at the end of the day, if I’m not happy with myself then I need to do something about it.

That is why, things are going to be changing around here and my life.

I’m going to get back on the weight loss game so you can actually see my jaw line again. I’m going to get back into fashion and wear clothing that makes me feel great. I’m going to start wearing make up again and practiasing different styles until I find one that I’m happy with. I’m going to grow my hair to a longer length so I can style it different ways. And most importantly, I am going to work on getting better mentally.

I’m going to start documenting my lifestyle changes on my blog, YouTube channel, Fitness Insta and Twitter. If you want to keep up to date with my life changes then I definitely recommending checking out my other socials.